This is my reason!

This is my reason!
My daddy, Cesar Virtucio. He is my reason!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

bike rides, 4months and a break...

This post is more on a personal level and since I am the one in charge I think that is just alright.

First off, I wanted to share my latest riding. I just love to ride my bike. It is so relaxing to just ride and let my mind clear out all the clutter that life tends to collect. Today, I rode close to 11 miles up and down my neighborhood. It was a lot of fun. The weather was perfect and I really enjoyed the silence and solitude. Bike riding was one of my dad's many hobbies. He was so fast. I could never keep up with him. Earlier this year my dad got me my bike and he and I would go on bike rides around our neighborhood. It was our bonding time (we had a lot of those). He and I would go on bike rides until he was no longer strong enough. I remember how he would tell me stories of when he was young and all the crazy stunts he did on his bike. So, in short, bike riding is very special to me!

On another note, tomorrow will be 4 months since I said good-bye to my amazing hero. These past 4 months have felt A LOT longer. I still can't believe that my daddy is gone. It feels as if in the past 4 months I have been disenchanted with reality, however, I think it is starting to catch up with me. I have more sad moments lately and ABSOLUTELY hate it. I pride myself on being strong...crying and sadness frustrate me, but it is life. It is grieving. AND it is not fun OR easy.

So, with that said...I have decide that I am taking a small break (not for good, just a small step back) from Love Caps...I am not by any means saying that I have decided to give up on Love caps! There is NO way I could turn my back away from this project. It holds my dad's legacy and memories. I would NEVER abandon this. However, I do feel that I am doing Love Caps a disservice by not being whole-heartily committed to it as I have in the past. This is just a small escape that will probably just last a week or two. Don't worry I will be back (and in full swing) before you know it and I bet my mini hiatus will not even be noticed. BUT since this is a blog I figure I will share my feelings anyway!

I am not sure who really reads my posting or if anyone (aside from my mom and my good friend Angela) follows my ramblings, but being able to express thoughts, feelings and emotions are very therapeutic!

Ciao for now...

1 comment:

  1. We all need a break....just know that there are people that support you. You take as long as you need. There will always be love caps to deliver...and I am sure we all can step up as you need us to right now. I love you Carisa! It's okay to express these feelings. Like you said it's therapeutic. Lyrics of an old song once said "deep inside this armor, the warrior is a child" meaning even warriors have their moments... Just find someone to lean on in those times.



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